The unknown can be so overwhelming. All the possibilities that roll through your brain, the good and the bad, the most simple and the most complex.
Two weeks ago my Grace was in getting her sports physical, and the doctor called me in and showed me that Grace had a very large thyroid. The information seemed to be simply passing through my ears. I kept mentally repeating over and over, “Don’t react, if you freak out you will scare the crap out of Grace, it could be a very simple fix.” Continue reading Embracing Uncertainty
After four years of trying, I consider myself a pro at listening to my body. However, for the first year, every PMS symptom made me think it could be a pregnancy symptom and I was developing mothers intuition early. Those lofty goals fell hard with the recurring period that inevitably came without fail. Every month I felt like a fool. Continue reading Cramps
While I had been able to be around a few friends and family along the way, the majority of the time I was alone. I relied on my ability to push through the pain, the mental anguish, and come out on the other side intact and on a physical adrenaline high but mentally and emotionally drained. So when I finally met with my group outside of Senator Tammy Duckworth’s office I was emotionally overloaded. Continue reading 2017 Advocacy Day
A few months ago, I wrote about my first visit with a new OBGYN. At that visit, I expressed my fears of infertility after we had been trying for 18 months. A pit in my stomach emerged when she told me that my tests were all normal and that I should give it some more time. Continue reading A New Beginning
Once I got home from my bike ride to D.C. I crashed, not literally, but mentally and physically. My friends and family all wanted to know how it went and kept asking me to tell them all about it, but the thing is I wasn’t sure I had anything to share. Continue reading I Think I Am Ready To Talk